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I cut my hair last Summer.
With the biggest and scariest pair of scissors I could find, so sharp that they were used to cut bones and I feared I may accidentally cut a void in the space-time continuum with them.
I jerked my head back, almost defiantly.
I was ready.
Silly of me to think that getting rid of most of that hair I loved so much would rid me of shame as well.
My hair was the beauty I didn't deserve to have.
Every tiny curl enclosed the fingers of the ghost of my actions and I dreaded the idea of confronting them.
Every strand, when lighted by the Sun, reminded me of my pitiful self and how it wasn't worth to be reflected by a mirror.
But unforgiving, the silver surface would tell me.
It's a beauty you don't deserve to have.
I saw it fall round my feet, felt the weight abandon my head as it died on the welcoming floor.
I saw the beauty collapse and cripple as if charred to the core.
I saw the light bleed from it all like a river of tears.
And still the weight of shame would bend me.
When my roommates came in, I remember their excited shrieks and giggles.
Please don't say that.
I wished I could stop caring, so maybe I wouldn't have thought it necessary to punish myself.
I wished (harder) I didn't have to look at a mirror everyday and just see a reflection of ugliness and pitiful regret.
I wished (afterwards) I could stop getting compliments about my new haircut, because they would just revolt me further.
I wished I could have made them understand that my hair was the only thing I truly loved of me.
And there was nearly none left.
I decided I'm never cutting my hair that short again.
There was hate in the eyes the mirror would show me.
I deserved that.
There was grief in the broken tips of my curls, but they would only cry through me.
I knew that.
There was a memory engraved in those scissors, in those hands wielding them, in those silky strands forcefully slaughtered and forever it shall live.
I won't need to cut my hair that short again.
With the biggest and scariest pair of scissors I could find, so sharp that they were used to cut bones and I feared I may accidentally cut a void in the space-time continuum with them.
I jerked my head back, almost defiantly.
I was ready.
Silly of me to think that getting rid of most of that hair I loved so much would rid me of shame as well.
My hair was the beauty I didn't deserve to have.
Every tiny curl enclosed the fingers of the ghost of my actions and I dreaded the idea of confronting them.
Every strand, when lighted by the Sun, reminded me of my pitiful self and how it wasn't worth to be reflected by a mirror.
But unforgiving, the silver surface would tell me.
It's a beauty you don't deserve to have.
I saw it fall round my feet, felt the weight abandon my head as it died on the welcoming floor.
I saw the beauty collapse and cripple as if charred to the core.
I saw the light bleed from it all like a river of tears.
And still the weight of shame would bend me.
When my roommates came in, I remember their excited shrieks and giggles.
"You look so cute!"
Please don't say that.
I wished I could stop caring, so maybe I wouldn't have thought it necessary to punish myself.
I wished (harder) I didn't have to look at a mirror everyday and just see a reflection of ugliness and pitiful regret.
I wished (afterwards) I could stop getting compliments about my new haircut, because they would just revolt me further.
I wished I could have made them understand that my hair was the only thing I truly loved of me.
And there was nearly none left.
I decided I'm never cutting my hair that short again.
There was hate in the eyes the mirror would show me.
I deserved that.
There was grief in the broken tips of my curls, but they would only cry through me.
I knew that.
There was a memory engraved in those scissors, in those hands wielding them, in those silky strands forcefully slaughtered and forever it shall live.
I won't need to cut my hair that short again.
Literature
Memo To Myself
don't fade away!
eat vitamins
walk in the sun
make the time
to take the time
to breathe
and be
the beauty
that surrounds you
recapture your spark!
eat with your hands and
talk to strangers
from the proper angle
every face looks like
an angel's
each moment
bears the makings
of a miracle
have a little faith!
throw caution to the wind
leap without looking
life would lack for love
without a little
falling
find the future
full of feeling
at your fingertips
Literature
Turn Out the Lights
Remember all the stories,
That you used to hear,
All those little stories,
That filled you with fear?
They told you all the things,
That you shouldn't do,
They said to pay attention,
But you refused
And then somebody whispers,
"Turn out the lights"
"I wanna meet the things that go
Bump in the night!"
So turn out the lights!
Let's see what happens
Turn out the lights!
Throw caution to the wind
Let's turn out the lights!
We won't know just what scares us,
Unless we begin
Creepy and spooky,
Sounds inside the walls
You can't explain just how you feel,
As your flesh begins to crawl
The hair stands up,
On the back of your ne
Literature
New meaning to 'one'
I want to sink myself into your muscle fibers,
lock my fingers around your bones
and just meld into you.
I want to
inhale life from your lungs
and listen to your heartbeat from within,
soak in everything you are.
Because this is just not close enough.
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This is truly very well written, the way it touches your spirit in the right way. We can feel what you felt at that time!